CNY!~ :D

Getting lesser enthusiasm as each CNY pass-by, even though this time is a 5 day long holiday period. Not able to go outdoors to have fun but staying at home when my 婆婆's house just next next door while 外婆 is 1 room away, hahaha.. Waking up early in the morning when someone is already in my house and i still look sloppy.. ahhhhhh 见不得人..

初夕
When to support people who are performing at deyi sec. Actually to them, i'm like spying on them hahah.. its nice to see zhiyong 教练came along.
初一
Camped at home, collecting hong bao.
初二
Manage to get out, all the way to woodlands since my mother's godma lives there. Its nice to go out but then, going there is so wrong. my parents only got me as a child, while each of their family got more than 3 =/. Materialistically, its a 赔本生意。
初三
At home-fullstop-
初四
Went out to find destinate-d temple to 拜拜.

::Random theory::
Level One Donation-
Donate to anyone who approaches you.
Level Two Donation-
Donate to Organization/Charity Group with/w/o your name.
Level Three Donation-
While Donating, donating to have good cause and hoping same go to you.

::Random Scenario::
A: You are so rich!
B: We are all "rich", we just invest our money on different things.
A: But you got such a expensive phone!
B: You dare say you have nothing add up which can par to my "expensive" phone?

Fading Off,
weixiianGx.

Steamboat gathering

i'm so full now!..

just had a potluck steamboat @suhui's hse, + many leftovers! wow.. Today route go like this, went SMU with bus 80! which took me 1h30mins++ when i can actually reach there around 40+ mins.. (stupidest lesson i learnt). Went SMU for a short interview for Project Light, actually i didn't know why i went to apply. After a short/slow reflection, i recalled what my mother said, i should use what i have now(youth + time) to experience more, if not when i have commitment towards work, want do crazy stuff also find it impossible. I will still feel content even if i'm not selected.. at least i tried. Next took MRT from Bras Basah to Boon Lay(didn't alight) to Joo Koon(bouncing + wasting time) to Boon Lay. Meet up with Gabriel and Jian Siong + took singhai's contribution to suhui house. With my intuition we went to suhui house with help like (SBS Bus 30, Alight after Lakeside pri.) HoHoHo!. Intended to surprise yikeng like how i surprise joel when i miracle-y able to walk to his house, but sadly, yikeng went to fairprice, :/. Camped from 2pm to 11pm.. :D.

My actual schedule for just now was.
CSI Exhibition > Suhui House.
The Project Light Interview suddenly appear from no where disrupt my planning.
Interview > CSI Exhibition > Suhui House.
But But!. Because i scare the bag of veggie i bought spoils so.. ..
Interview > Meetup(it was cancel=/) > Suhui House.

有了一点小小的领悟.. (Previous post's part2)
If only i have seal it so tight and not letting it expose to the open air, i don't think this will be happening. Sometimes its better to have things just to myself. Whats the point of letting others know, they can do nothing about it. The only things their subconscious will do is to change the view of how they view it. Either good or bad like gambling my trust towards them. I guess i mis-bet-ed it, and the only time i feel like going back through time to change it. *sigh*


Fading Off,
weixiianGx.

Dislike Hate Dislike Hatred Dislike.

Hmm.. is it me thinking to much or there is nothing going on around me.
Sometimes my intuition quite true, this time, i been sensing that there is a hate/dislike aura around me. Who is the one wanting me to vanish in thin air in front of him/her?

And i started reflecting on my past. At each stage of my life it seems like there will be someone there to hate me so much and each time it happen, some part of me went off too.
Primary life- Doesn't know what best friend really means, everyone was either close or just friend, yet there is one long term one which was from the same child care -> student care -> primary school. P4~6 that moment, it was the bubble tea fever, and the mischievous him like other kids love to play pearl shooting game, so guess what? I was the target, well actually i don't mind getting shot or whatsoever, but since it isn't me who washes the clothes. I defended myself when my mother found out. Another guess what? My mother went to the school to find the DM and so its like the every kid story, we no longer friend and he never talk to me once since then. ha.. and so.. learnt to bear every resentment to myself.

Next degree of my life set foot few years later in sec one, where my in game mischief cause another disaster to me. Being playful made me lost trust towards a friend so this time.. i lock up 'playfulness'. Forwarding 3 years ahead, kPO in the topic. Towards BG-Relationship that should happen around that age. Backfire everything.. i shut my mouth..

Entering SP, Due to some mistrust and one's assumption of me using him, and 'poof' friendship no longer there. *sigh* i think i didn't try hard enough to maintain my 'nice guy' reputation. Or maybe i'm not even a 'nice guy'. Once you get to get familiar with me, you will get to know another side, theres where 'apart' come in. Quiet -> Talkative -> Annoying -> Irritating. Tried so hard, don't mind being used and kick aside after that, and yet.. humans.. once you make a mistake.. its like a bubble within your hand phone screen protector, cannot be remove and become an eyesore when more bubbles popping out.


Fading Off,
weixiianGx.

Awesome Simple Evening

Went yangyang's hse after homework discussion in school, he made me his 拿手 chawanmushi. Due to my impromptu appearances, he wasn't prepared and when preparing the dish(i bullshit-ed), he forgotten to the MOST IMPORTANT ingredient. So the served dish change from chawanmushi to steam egg :D, haha. He wasn't please with his failure and went to make a small cup of it. This time it isn't tasteless. i didn't had much for the second serving, i realise i was sick after having a few tries. OMG hope he don't get infected by my virus :(. Hohoo, then he say he will make a better one next time, means i have a chance to intrude his house again :D. Amazingly i still manage to walk to his house without getting lost( i have such good sense of direction *praise* ), but i fail to remember the exact story. Funny thing is i messaged him to open the door when i was at 3rd floor and i heard door opening sound from the 4th, and my intuition told me i wasn't at the right floor, haha blur me :/.

Delicious-lookingsteam egg chawanmushi made by Chef Joel.

Mini-overdose-cool-looking Chawanmushi made by Chef Joel.

My first meal not by family/relatives was at suhui's hse after japan culture exchange program.
And now the second time :D! Feelings that cannot be describe through words.

Before everything from above starts, i was sleeping soundly in my bed, unexpected 'morning call' woke me up. If it isn't this morning call. I think i will sleep till 12pm and miss the meeting with shinghui and huimin. So sorry for being late.

Recent quote from Secret Garden(Channel U, Wed 8pm).
There are 3 type of apologize.
A) It come from bottom of your heart.
B) Just to let the relationship to go on.
C) To avoid awkward feelings in the future.

90% from A, 9% from B and 1% from C. i was feeling sick so my body doesn't feel like waking up. Thats why was late(even though i know this isn't a best excuse).

Brought Training set in case there is a training on going, yet it was cancelled, so my evening training changed plans. -back to the main topic above-

My phone doesn't make me feel so irritated now after i change my screen protector :D!.

Fading Off,
weixiianGx.

Recalling of the In-activeness

After my working as sales promoter(1st weekend)
Slacking in my house(2nd weekdays)
Went Malaysia to shop for cheap stuff with family/relative(2nd weekend)
Omg it feel like it pass so fast.
Working on stuff.. ... ... (3rd weekday)
Mini Gathering with liyan/xinhui/jiansiong/sean @The Cathay for Aston and Ben & Jerry, saw eugene coach by coincidence. Feel that meeting him anytime anywhere after he stop teaching us is a fateful bless. (Tuesday)
Rushing Anime episodes (3rd weekend)
First time Celebrating New year @marina square. Reminiscent on how many first time i had in 2010, and hope to have more to come in 2011. (last night of 2010, first night of 2011)
Struggling with school work again
SPGG free dinner.. (friday training cancelled due to this)
SP Open House Wushu performance, Omg! my pants almost drop because i went to wear the very loose pants. (1st weekend after sch reopen)
SPWC AGM, is it a bless that i'm now secretary cum assistant welfare and not welfare head? But then again, whats with that 3 extra title at the back -.- (1st weekend after sch reopen)
SPWC 18th Committee first meeting, fastest meeting ever.(2nd Friday since holiday ends)
Mike Workshop, saw Joseph representing DMIT, Adrian representing CLS. (3rd Wednesday, CNY seems so far away)
Mini Gathering with liyan/xinhui/jiansiong/sean/arthur/singhai @United Square for Texas Chicken, the first scratch on my phone happen that night too.. so 碍眼, 越看越不爽 :(. (3rd Wednesday night)


Fading Off,
weixiianGx.

16-19Dec

Woohoo! First part time job, from 16 to 19th Dec. First time jiu work from 10 to 10.

Day Zero:
Went suntec convention centre to setup. Originally was told it was from 12.30pm till setup finish which was like 3hours, in the end it became 7hours. The job was introduced by singhai :D!, he actually need 2 people, ta di yi ge jiu xiang dao wo, then he ask me get 1 more, wo di yi ge xiang dao de shi yangyang! :D!, since he need money. Working as scholl promoter inside Guardian X'mas fair.

Day One:
Working as promoter is something which i don't really like, as i prefer back crew stuff, but since agreed to help so must try my best!, then i alsoscare i can't sell anything, even thought there is no commission in this job. I set a target that i would at least sell away 1 shoe box in each day. So, incredibly i manage to sell the first 2 shoe, forgotten the price. Felt so happy!!. Cause i did some contribution :). First day quite relax as it's a friday while everyone is working. During lunch, which was like 3pm, high tea? i went for lunch, advised from yikeng, cheap food court but still very expensive since it's a town area :(. In the end bought some tibits from the fair which will let me survive for the next 2 days. At the end of the day, last 30 mins 2 girl came, one want to buy shoe for her mother, we recommend her massage shoe as it help blood circulation, xue yu xun huan. She ask her friend for advise on which shoe, then her friend said, "if you want your mother xue yu xun huan then you buy this *pointing to the massage shoe* then if you don't want your mother xue yu xun huan then buy this shoe *points to the normal shoe*" At the end sold around 10+ shoes.

Day Two:
Have a feeling of don't want to wake up from bed, heng heng i set 3 alarm to wake me up from dream, bed and the late-ness. Interesting stuff.. hmmm.. During our work, when we chit chat, we say we are like doing a CIP with income. Since our product benefits our health and elderly :D and the job is like so easy. Wahahaha, second day de sales result got more :D and and since the food in central is so expensive, so! i decided not to eat. You know you know.. The rates is one hour of my working time = one lunch :(!..

Day Three:
Everyday walk into the fair with customers waiting outside, feel so shuang!! Last day finally!.. The manager who visited us when we doing the setup said she will be coming down to spy in case we never service our customers but we see no them!! :p. Many many amazing fun moments (that i feel) happen in this 3 days..(We did 3 ren ya tui) We ended our job by packing up the unsold boxes of shoes, and joel's daily 360.. Plus plus accident-ly kope 3 free chairs from scholl :D!

Fading Off,
weixiianGx.

28 Days Later. (Not the Film)

Ahhh so tired.. its been 28days since i last posted. Haha!
Recent activities was went suhui's house for Wii after japanese school exchange program, then went clarke quay to celebrate alvin's birthday, so training was cancelled on that day since kyC n zyC appeared. Buskers Festival @sentosa :D, on Sunday, second time went there with spwc peeps :D. Interview for OITP @ one of the wednesday, when i went in, there's already 10 people sitting down there!. i wasn't 'late' its just that i went into a wrong room :(. The atmosphere is so scary, 3 lecturer sit in front, a group of 7 know each other and a group of 3 know from the same class and only me, the odd one out. i wonder will i tio disqualify due to that? haha. MST mugging period, 1 paper each day for 4 continuous day, and the last paper ended at 7pm! :(, as soon as it ended i was sick. Skipped Friday training. Went Sizzler Buffet on Saturday cause singhai got coupons! haha, we went there to eat 菜。 we turned herbivorous, but there still got meat lah. Haha, next went paragon walk walk, Paragon sell 的 stuff so expensive :(.. i saw the Crumpler bag i been looking for :D, but too poor to buy, haha. Off to BPP for Power Ranger RPM to support Suhui as Yellow Ranger!. Second time le wor~ JF and RPM only got 1 girl.

Wahhh.. i summarize my 1 month adventure into a essay like it all happen in a day.

This few days, been working on stuffs related to SPWC.
Then then, yesterday night just finish the viewable product of the new Attendance Marking System to be use inside GoogleDocs, but to better enhance the use, i feel like buying a domain =/.
Should i should i?

Next, new blog template. within 2 hours work First | Second. Didn't really like the second one, but can be edited to be even better nor the First, compare to This. But the First and Second one have sliding images, which i find it cooL!.. haha yet don seems suitable :(.. ahhhhhh

Fading Off,
weixiianGx.

Dark Cloud Overwhelms.

Hmmm.. There's too much things to post, I wonder how do i start..

Lets start with my deepest dark thoughts.. I don't get angry/frustrated/fed up/depress easily if someone kacau me.. I'm a peaceful phlegmatic :)!.. so... ... here come the weakness..
"这是人性的问题，人就是那么复杂你在一段关系上 放的感情越多你就越难忍受对方背叛自己"
When i put feeling into something and it disappoints or unintentionally hurt me. My mood weaves, like unpredictable weather..

好想气它，yet it isn't it's fault.. so can only blame myself for my stupidity.

Maybe its time to jump off this boat, everytime 我为人人， 人人却不为我。 我干吗还那么辛苦的为别人照相呢？ 突然觉得好累。 Ningen tachi tada horobiru..

我知道我在你们心里是没有地位，所以我好不想用我自己来当无为的筹码，再让自己受伤。。

No matter how deep i fell, i will still get up, but you will never know how pain it was...


Out of all the depressing moments, i do have some happy things to share!.. :D
1. Jian Yu = Reign of Assassin = 剑雨! Nice show :D.. watched.. finally :D
2. Letter from Liyan :D!! so touch... let me recalled first letter was from alicia at tpy pool place.
3. i don't have to attend CRS module for 2 weeks :D!!~
4. Even though Deepavail ended, there is still Hari Raya Haji!! :D weee Holidays!

Ending paragraph..
If you are in my concern list, please kindly don't hurt me as.. .. I'm Fragile.

ijusthatemyself,
weixiianGx.

iHateMyself!

Sometimes feel like a cactus, when interacting, the harder u touch it, the feedback is painful, sometimes even though you are gentle yet you may still get hurt.

If i could stop thinking about , my mood wouldn't be so sian now.

My reputation made me what I'm now..
Should i try destroying it?

Enjoyment is what you wants which i can never give.

Fading Off,
weixiianGx.

Genting Photos!

As promised :D, after such long delay!~..



Was trying to take the background full of well design rocks :( -fail- lols

Look! so real! .. yet isn't real~

Beautiful sun right?! i scare my camera lens spoil sia~

Vignette wall :D

Soo!! Those celebrities didn't actually come..

Movies @ Genting :D!

Cool Tee.. wanted to buy!! D:.. yet .. blehs

2nd try(Day 2) out for the background.. -fail!-

Yay!! almost did it.. (last try le.. leaving liaos)


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weixiianGx.